Mati Rasa

I thought that I would be okay. The fact is, I’m still thinking that I’m okay while my eyes know me better by trembling tears down to my cheek.
The saddest part is when I know that I’m crying, I know that I should feel hurt but I can’t feel anything.
I’m just being so heartless.

So this is what Indonesian people called this situation in two words: mati-rasa.